I'll be candid, I don't do transitions well. I resist while I jump. Pulled between the calling of traditions, of normalcy, of home, and the echo of the unknown bouncing of canyon walls. I want to investigate every possibility but I don't want anything to change and this ambivalence often paralyzes me until there is no time left for grace.
Just a wild leap with a prayer.
What I'm getting at, with an awkward circling of the edges, is that I'm leaving ClubMom for a different home. Not out of discontent but because I followed an opportunity that came to me unexpected. Like this life of mine. Just hold on and remember to breathe.
I won't say this is my last post because endings are even worse than transitions. But it might be. I'm not sure when my account will officially close.
My hope is you all will follow me, follow Elias, to see where this story leads. I can't yet share the official link for the new blog but I can direct you to my CafeMom page where I will post more information as soon I get the word. If I'm able to post it directly here I will. I apologize for my abruptness, for making you hop around, and for my lack of grace.But for the sake of the boy that could I hope you venture over when you can.
(http://www.cafemom.com/home/4Elias) (Scroll down to the journal section and I'll write my new info there.)
Thank you to ClubMom for inspiring me to write for an audience for the first time instead of filling notebooks to hide under my bed. Thank you to all of you for telling me again and again that what I write makes sense, that you understand, that I can do it even when I don't think I can, and for cheering on Elias from all across the globe.
And of course to Elias, you are bigger than I could ever dream. 
I have been reading your blog for months and so enjoy it. I hate to see you leave - but I will certainly 'follow the links' to keep up with you. Your son is precious.
Posted by: Patty | July 11, 2007 at 04:23 PM
Congratulations Christy! I'm super excited for you. Lots of love
D
Posted by: deidre | July 11, 2007 at 08:38 PM
Can't wait to see the new "home." And because I'm not sure I'll connect directly with you today (7/12), I also wanted to wish you Happy Anniversary! Hope you and Nick are able to do something fun and/or romantic with Bruce and Kathy there to help with Elias. Can't wait to see you all in Seattle next week.
Posted by: Andrew Everett | July 12, 2007 at 07:05 AM
I am glad you are not just STOPPING. Moving, fine. I will follow you anywhere. Just don't stop.
I would miss Elias, I really would.
Posted by: Robbin | July 12, 2007 at 07:17 AM
Ditto the "I'm so glad you are not stopping" -- I enjoy reading your beautiful and moving entries so much and would miss you terribly. I don't comment enough (or maybe too much sometimes too) but I read faithfully and will follow. ;)
Posted by: JenniferB | July 12, 2007 at 08:35 PM
I can deal with moving...but not stopping. So transition away. :)
Posted by: Kyla | July 13, 2007 at 12:34 PM
Of course I will follow! How could I not?
Also, I have this idea that you should write a book based on your most recent adventures, one that contrasts the physical activity of the bike ride with the infinite patience required to raise a child like Elias, all juxtaposed against the amazing natural world, one that you write about so well. I can picture it!
Posted by: Vicki Forman | July 13, 2007 at 04:30 PM
Christy, "go for it!" You are such a talented writer and a very special mom. Elias looks so cute in every picture that you share.
mae ann
Posted by: mae ann | July 14, 2007 at 05:54 AM
Vicki, thanks for the visualization--I do hope to work on a book when i get out of graduate school and I like your idea.
And to everyone, thank you for following:) I'm not suppose to publicly link to the new blog till the headers are designed and some of the kinks resolved, hopefully early next week...till then I'll still be writing posts with no readers and missing all my wonderful comments.
Thanks so much for being there.
Posted by: Christy | July 14, 2007 at 06:27 PM
Christy,
You can bet I'll be reading along :-) Elias looks so big!
Posted by: Kelly I | July 16, 2007 at 06:48 AM
I'll be following Christy. You're a must read on my blogroll and I need my regular doses of Elias.
Congrats on your new venture!
Posted by: Procrastamom | July 17, 2007 at 06:31 AM
Oh, Christy, best wishes to you and yours! I've enjoyed ClubMom blogging with you!
Posted by: Shrinkingmom | July 31, 2007 at 08:54 PM
Christy-
First. Its been so long!!!!
I am moved by your story, your blog, and your honesty. I am a clinical social worker in private practice in Boulder where I specialize in parenting and the prevention and treatment of Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. Many, many of the moms who I work with would find strength in your writing.. and I will pass this blog along.
I would also welcome any blog posts that you would like to contribute to mine. It can be found at www.katekripke.wordpress.com.
Please let me know an email address to I ca write off-line.
Warmly,
Kate (Shaw) Kripke
Posted by: Kate Kripke | May 05, 2010 at 07:19 PM